Gay Gods
One of my favourite clichés about heterosexual couples is them playing Sam Smith’s song Stay with Me at their wedding. It just makes me wonder. Wether they know, wether they are cheerfully aware of its implications. Like someone who is laughing into the devil’s face. Is it boldness or delusion?
I wonder how much attention they paid to lyrics such as This ain’t love, it’s clear to see. And their loved ones bearing witness to the spectacle - are they compliant with the hidden script?
And I suppose if you only listen to the first few lines,
it may sound like a love story we all have been taught
by movies, stories, and other nasty stuff
Guess it′s true, I'm not good at a one-night stand
But I still need love ′cause I'm just a man
Reads like the blue print for most romcoms
and if you can, even in the slightest, identify with that narrative and the constructed symbolism around love
I suppose you might get a bit dreamy on three and four;
These nights never seem to go to plan
I don't want you to leave, will you hold my hand?
Haven’t we all felt that in some type of way?
Nights that were supposed to be short and sweet
which then quickly and unexpectedly turned into something else
for better and for worse
People who we wanted to keep close, whose soft touch felt like a deep hug,
and simple strokes strike as intensely as kneading one does.
And deep down, I know this never works
But you could lay with me, so it doesn't hurt
I may be able to relate to the craving for intimacy and
- within the context of a one night stand -
even the fainting hope of covering up emotional wounds with the physical bodies of other people.
Though applied to the person you are vowing to spend the rest of your life with
I find it hard to ignore the sound of despair.
Maybe I just wish for your boldness over your self-delusion. I’d rather embrace your triumph and your failure, than be part of a performance which betrays you. I may not agree with the constructed binary around gender, but by all means I do support the heterosexual marriage. I particularly encourage all wives to seek out whores like their husbands do. The pleasures you will find upon yourselves. And possibly within.
So for the love of gay gods -
Get your lick back!